Just like a caterpillar turning into a beautiful butterfly,

searching for nectar from the flowers,

and fly in the garden filled with tranquility.

I'm back and this time hopefully I'll be much more faithful. First of all, Salam Ramadhan to all Muslims. It's still not to late to wish right? Life for me has been a bit complex. I've been simply dragging my time off each day. At the same time, I did a lot of self-search and corrections to my life. I realised that one of my main weakness that might have caused me to lag behind is the disability to hang on to the strong-will and determination for long. In Malay, it is like "Hangat-hangat taik ayam". Yes, like that aahhh.

Dare to dream, dare to plan, dare to look forward. Yes to all of the above. Sound very motivating and convincing but yet when it come to carrying out the action plan, another weakness came in. The weakness of scared/nervous/tense whatever vocab that asssociates with it. "Orang banyak kuat, tapi hati banyak kecikk". Tskkk! So you know when you tend to be scared, you tend to give a pause to whatever you want to do. You thought you can give yourself some time. But eventually this pause will then prolonged to become a stop one day.

The only one to be blamed for all these to happen is no one but youself - yes, myself. I have to persistently believe in myself in whatever I do in order for me to move on. Alhamdulillah, god have gave me the strength to do so and small changes can be seen for now. Hopefully, these small changes will slowly developed to much bigger ones. Insyaállah. And with that also, hopefully it will help to strengthen the ties in my family.

I shall blog more in another day. For now, I am going to start baking the first cookie for Hari Raya. I just love doing this. Hopefully, I can do it fast and then I can turn into bed early because tomorrow will be my first day of work - morning shift. Hopefully people there will treat me niceeee.

LOVES.