YES. let's drive through childhood memories. .

There was this little girl who misses her childhood days.

She wishes upon the star hoping that she could go back to her older days.

Her growing up process during her adolescent days was simply a mess.

"I wish I can predict the future so that I can plan well for it. . ."

she said.

As she grows up, she slowly lost the warmth of love.

Then she almost lost her true self.

With the courage that she has, she moved on.

But still, she can't avoid the fact that her cells are playing through her brain.

And it's brain-racking when the thought of love comes by.

She misses her family. . .

She miscount the days of her going out as a whole family.

She can't even remember when was the last.

She knows her family loves her.

But she misses the quality times which she used to have with them.

Tears nearly fall whenever she saw a blissful family going out together.

Forgive her for being envious.

But she hates knowing the fact when someone got a special treatment from his/her parent.

May it be a gift or a treat.

So people, count yourself lucky. . .

She misses the days when......

she holds her daddy's hand.

she celebrated her birthday.

she received hugs & kiss from her mom.

she dine in together with her family.

she go shopping with her family.

she don't need to pay for her clothes & all.

she could just talk for long hours with her family members.

_*SHE miss her ponytail hair days, holding her mom's & dad's hand happily walking with no stress tagging along.

If only life was really wonderful from the start till the end.

Then this little girl wouldn't have felt so miserable..

No doubt, she is still thankful to god for giving herself a chance to live and adapt into this beautiful world. Because the creations of other living things helps her to boost her spirits and spark a smile on her face. Adding on, having to found a special someone who manages to capture her heart is another big thing. The devotion that she have for him is over the mountain. He is the one that she's been looking for and thus he's the one that contributes to her everyday smile. She loves him so much without even an inch of hatred.

"Till death, i'll be with you. Even when i'm gone, you'll still be in my heart.."

and that was a promise she made.

_____**Death was the only thing she fear of. If she were to be gone before you, please remember her by the name nur syafiqah..

till then.

loves. <3